This was not something I want to talk about, and I didn't think I'd have to but apparently people like to make things that I say into a controversy. I guess that's what happened in the boycott, and I realize that being on the internet, you have to handle hate, which I do by not responding, but I find it hard to not argue my opinion in an argument. So instead of writing it everywhere I'm putting up this incredibly stupid post. I want to forget about her because what she does to everyone drives me up the wall and around the corner. That her? Well typing her name makes me cringe a little, but if not you won't know who I'm talking about, but her it goes anyway... stephenswodadancer. Why I'm ever even mentioning her I don't know because honestly, I like to forget about her. See once upon a time, when I was just starting out, we were friends. We would talk and she was just the same as all of us. Then one day she magically became popular. Maybe it was because of her age, maybe it was because of her dolls, maybe it was because back then, and up until 2 years ago, she used to make videos that has a special something to them. Little stop motion dances that were fun and original to watch. Now, not so much. Anyways, she became this mega-star, her videos plastered everywhere, fan accounts, fan contests, everything! And that's when my knowing her stopped. I never got another reply from her. Mind you she only had around 1000 subscribers at the time because back then, that was all that AGTube was. Just a few hundred of us, not nearly the amount there is now. Anyways, I guess she was too busy to reply to anyone, including friends. I remember messaging her a valid help question about the partner program, as she had claimed at one point that she was a partner, and I got no reply. That's why I waited forever to sign up... It's ironic now to me though... Continuing on, the fact that I wasn't good enough to be her friend anymore, and that she'd moved onto more famous people to make friends with, isn't what bothers me. It's how she treats everyone else. Here's the thing, you can leave for 6 months without a words notice, promise everything and never bring it, only ever make videos advertising something for yourself, or making an excuse, after excuse, after excuse, and leave all of your subscribers clinging on, but it's just totally wrong if you're the biggest person in the community. It bothers me that she has all of this that she doesn't deserve. I'm telling you, I hardly even sleep because I'm always up doing something, and yet I find time (in the early hours of the morning on the weekends mind you XD) to reply to everyone. I find the time to make a video of 2 every week and to acknowledge every single person who has bothered to say hello to me. Why? Because they deserve it for being a good person, and I want to treat them with the same amount of respect as the give me. I'm not too good for any of you, and any of you can do what I do with a little effort. Most of you do better than me anyway so it's obvious XD All I want everyone to think about are 3 things.
1: What makes her videos the "best" on AGTube? Why aren't basilmentos, or Asterietoile's videos the best? What makes hers so incredibly special that allows her the title of the BEST EVER? The rest of AGTube puts of videos weekly, or more often, we all put so much effort and hard work into them and yet nobody bothers to say that anyone else is the best. Personally, I'm not even subscribed the she-who-must-not-be-named (No, not Voldemorts feminine side...) because I haven't found her videos worth watching since she stopped making original, cool to watch videos 2 years ago, and I don't care about when they come out anymore because I don't feel as though I should watch them over some underrated girl's music video. I almost feel like she's just been considered the best because she's usually who people stumble across first. If you search American Girl Dolls on YouTube, I swear she takes up the first 2 pages and so that's who you find and that's who you worship. That doesn't make them the best though. I mean she could at least use a clear camera, or get some decent lighting or something aesthetically appealing for my eyes to enjoy. The videos just don't do it for me, so why would I watch them when I could watch some of the real best YouTubers. Quality comes through effort, and to me, the effort just isn't there. And lack of effort is not a type of video.
2: She's always "busy". Always, always, always. But last I was notified, she had a 9-5 job, doesn't even go to school anymore, and I'm pretty sure, at least to my knowledge, adults come home and just kinda get themselves food, clean up, and then relax all evening. So how is she busy? No, I don't know her schedule, but I know my own, and mine is busier than my working parents who are also raising 2 children. I basically leave for school at 8:00, and get home at 4:30 because I suffer and hour long commute via city transit (16th birthday please come soon!) then I have dance for most of every night, usually getting home around 9:30-9:45, and when I first get home from school, it's homework. Then every other Saturday I'm at dance fro 9:00-7:30 (That is not a typo, I'm literally there for 10 and a half hours without a break) and have every other Sunday morning too. Then I usually shove YouTube in on my other weekend when I only have 2 and a half hours on Saturday and a free Sunday and get all my filming done for the next week. Oh and I reply to messages around 1:30-3am, because that's when I can get it done. Only on weekend nights though, I need SOME sleep XD Anyways, if you're willing to take on a position that she's in, you have to make time for it, and if you can't stop excusing yourself, admit it, and stop soaking up the fame without having to do anything for it. Nobody wants to be a Kim Kardashian.
3: The biggest thing for me is how people solidly defend her when she doesn't deserve that from the either. Yes I think everyone should be treated like an equal on YouTube, and that's what bothers me. This situation makes me a little sick. To the people saying I'm being so mean to her, what has she done for you to deserve your dedication and servitude? Why are you defending someone who doesn't bother to reply to you. It's surprisingly easy to do if you're willing to put effort into it. Why are you sticking up for someone who's never said a kind word to you, helped you, or been a friend to you in your entire life? And why are you standing up for this person, against someone who actually tries to communicate with anyone who will so much utter a hello? I actually want everyone to feel important on here, because without them, I'm nothing, meanwhile she treats you all like swarming fans in which she has the right to have. What is it that she's done to you to make you adore her in such a way that you feel the need to excuse her for her neglect? I'm not saying she has to be a part of the community anymore. All I'm saying is that if she isn't going to be, she should stop promising that she's coming back for good. So until she's a friend to you, she doesn't deserve your valiant acts to defend her honor, because usually the person pointing out what nobody wants to hear, is kinda right.
So that's it. I'm not speaking of her again and I'm sorry that I had to. I don't hate the girl. I get that she's had health issues, but so have I, I just don't worry people over it. I could write out a page of my ailments but I won't because people will worry over me, when they don't have to. Back to what I was saying, I hope she begins to treat people as they treat her, or just vanishes off of YouTube for good and actually tells people about it so everything can subside and we can go back to the place where there isn't a goddess who can do no wrong. I'm not bullying her or talking trash about her, I'm stating my observations and facts. Coming back for a day every six months is not coming back, so I don't think that anyone should believe it anymore. Three's far too many. UGH RANTING AGAIN, BAD ALI. So yeah, that's it. That's my reasoning. Just please, think about what you're going to say, and think about why you're saying it before you do.
Outta sight, outta mind.