Thursday, December 1, 2011

I don't understand people.

I know I've made a lot of long winded speeches about hate and bullying but it's been touching on me and everyone again and as usual so I just want to say something. I just don't get people, and it seems like half the time I don't like them either. I live my life by 2 main little rules:
1) Do not steal. (There's this whole thing about killing is stealing away a life and blah blah read the Kite Runner and you'll see)
2) Just be nice and try and make everyone's day a bit better.
I'm going to talk about rule number 2. We have 1 life and we want it to be incredible. I try not to let sad things get me down because what's the point in being upset? I'm just losing precious minutes of life to something terrible. So here's the thing. I don't like to hurt people and I want everyone to like me. I have a fear of not being liked. When I can tell somebody doesn't like me, I go out of my way to make them think I'm a good, likable person. That's not the only reason I'm nice though. Everyone really should be happy. There are many things we want in life but I'm going to tell you a secret: on 11/11/11 11:11 I wished for happiness. That's all I want. To be happy. I don't care what it is that makes me happy as long as I'm happy. So I do not understand why people love to hate. Anyone who loves to hate should have not been born. What good does their hatred do? It just makes people spend their precious lives in tears and distress. Just be kind to people. There are other joys to life than hating. Let me get to my point: stop hating on the internet. Because you're reading my blog, I'm going to assume this doesn't apply to you, but this is just a tip for life. All because you have a keyboard does not make you some big deal. Would you say something completely hateful to a young girl to whom you've never met before on the street? No, you wouldn't. You wouldn't just walk up to her and say, "You're an idiot" because that's real life. You don,t have the guts to do it. But oh no,on the internet you're suddenly a huge deal and can bully whoever you want because you don't know them and it doesn't matter. But here's the thing: it does. Imagine that kid reading your comment. Sitting in their bedroom, reading it and thinking they aren't worth anything. Why would you do that? Of course we all come across a lot more positive things than negative but the negative stand out. Up until about a year ago, I thought AGTube was the best place EVER. Why? Because nobody hated and nobody judged. Now it's everywhere. I can't say a thing without some critical and useless response that I remember. It makes me want to leave. I wouldn't because all the wonderful people are too great to leave, but lately all the hate is just making me want to quit now. Don't worry I won't, it's just a thought. I don't like the people who deal with problems in a negative way. I don't like the people who say "I'm rude, get used to it." Because no, I won't. I don't deserve you're rudeness. Nobody does. I shouldn't have to waste my life putting up with you and nobody else should either. I have 100 years or less. I'm just kicking you out of life as I know it if that's you're attitude. Nobody likes someone who doesn't know how to treat people. Oh and speaking of treating people, putting "Not to be rude" or "No offence" beside something rude or offensive, does not make it kind or inoffensive. If you think it's rude or offensive, chances are it is, so if you don't mean it that way, don't post it. I just don't see how people can just be mean to somebody they've never met. People have claimed to HATE me over the internet. I've never MET YOU. Did I kill your family? No I didn't. That would break #1 of my moral code. You can.t just hate me because. In fact those people who do hate me actually usually haven't even talked to me before but have been told to hate me by someone else, or just decide to because since I am slightly popular on YouTube, that means I can't feel and hating doesn't matter as long as it makes them feel better. I started at 0 too and I made this myself. You can do it just as easily. I'm lucky people in real life are great to me. I go to such a great school, because I haven't been bullied in 4 years and it wasn't even severe. I'm happy at school, but when I get home I'm AFRAID to check YouTube. Haters are making me afraid to do something I love. I'm afraid of haters. I don't want to have to deal with them. So from here on out, I'm just ignoring them. I'll let all of you great girls down vote them to the very bowels of the earth until they melt in a pool of lava. Don't even bother saying anything to them, I appreciate it so much but I'd hate to see anyone get caught up in a war over me. Just down vote it and it's over. Thanks for the thought though <3 Anyways the point is hate may be in human nature, but let's break it. Hate is just a waste. I had such a good day until I logged on to see several hate comments. One even said "My sister thinks you're a terrible photographer but I think you're really good." I have nothing against this girl, I think she's lovely for being so kind to me, but I doubt her sister watches my videos and she just judged me then and there and hated me. I don't know who she is but she thinks I'm terrible. It's not a big deal but it does hurt a little. What can I do? I'm doing the best I can with my tools I can afford, and I don't take it to heart too much, but it hurts. People forget I'm human sometimes. I just brushed my teeth. I'm sitting on a mattress in my brothers room because I don't currently have a bedroom. A tree in my yard fell onto the road last week. Normal things happen to me. I'm normal. At school, I'm exactly like everyone else. You couldn't pick me out of the crowd. So treat me and treat everyone else like a human. Treat them how you'd treat yourself. Stop hating and bullying and stop making people ashamed and afraid to do what they love. Stop putting strangers down. It just adds more horror to the world as if we need more. be a light shining on the planet to make things brighter in a dark time. Our world is currently in hateful distress, so why can't we all just stop and be happy. Everyone hates. I just don't get it. Tomorrow, don't be jealous. Don't hate. Make it a goal to put a smile on a strangers face. Just make the world a little awesomer. Also if you did forget that I'm human, here's a very human picture of me dringking juice after a dance competition in a hotel:


  1. Well said, Ali! This is so true! We NEED to be happy. Everyone hates, but that can be stopped. You can NOT hate, it's not impossible.

    You said it great, Ali! :-)


  2. Hey Ali! Remember me, Pinkcouture5? You know the one that u used to youtube P.M. during the summer? If you could follow my blog, and possibly tell people about it, I'll get my friends to subscribe to ur blog and youtube channel?

  3. Ali you are so right! People shouldn't hate!

  4. There you go ali, you just brightened my day and made it a little awesomer. :o)I can completely understand the hate that you have been getting lately on here. I have been to. People say that I have said such rude, terrible things to them when I haven't, and people judging the quality of my videos because I don't have a canon rebel or a tripod that's taller than a doll. I'm glad that no matter how much hate you get, you still try to be happy and push them away. It breaks my heart to hear that you are afraid to get on Youtube as well. I hope we can all spread happiness and just make the happy people even more happy. I feel bad for the people with such angry souls who do not get that feeling when they see a new American Girl video pop up in their subscription box. I feel bad that they don't get that feeling that they are part of a wonderful, talented AG family that's all about spreading joy to one another. Thank you for everything you do and just think, with every bad comment you get, there are always hundreds more lovely ones behind it <3

  5. I always have tried to say that and whenever I start saying that i have been bullied or tried to stop bullying all people say r it's life get over it. It drives me crazy! I want to thank u for posting this 4 doing something I would never do because I am afraid. One time someone said to me when I told them something like that they said: deal with it your a loser move on cuz your an idiot. And u was shocked! I want to thank u again fir trying to make agtube a better Place cuz I miss it and u think alot of people do to. <3 lexy

  6. Too true, Ali! I hope that things start getting better for you!