AGUnicorns

Here's a rant post because I feel like freaking ranting. AGUnicorns is probably one of the worst mistakes that anybody's ever made. I wish I'd never wanted to share it and I wish I'd never told people about it. All I wanted was to make music videos. However I can't, so I needed a second channel to do so but it'd be pointless to have my own because I'd hardly ever be able to update it so when the other girls all wanted the same thing, it seemed like one of the most fun things possible to do because I'd be sharing a channel with friends, but OH NO. I can't be FRIENDS with people on YouTube! That'd be far too much like real life, where people get hurt! People just blew this whole thing way out of proportions. They were all "offended and left out" because they weren't involved in our Facebook messages, that we've been talking on for months, that led up to the mutual creation of the channel. After all, everybody ever should have the right to be part of the shared channel, right? And yet no matter how many times I explain it, I can't catch a break from the constant criticism. First people were being "excluded" just like at school and I had become this popular queen who was bullying everyone and I OBVIOUSLY made this channel all on my own and CHOSE the most POPULAR people on YouTube to share it with! And I OBVIOUSLY think I'm the best and most popular person on YouTube! That's totally why I spend hours replying to everyone, helping anybody that asks, and attempt to make friend with anyone who acknowledges my existence! Because I think I'm better than everyone! I mean I OBVIOUSLY said that in my video! Of course I said "I'm the best and most famous on YouTube and everyone should spit shine my shoes!!!" Then I went on to be criticized for not "allowing" (because this is soooo my thing) every older girl on YouTube to be in this channel! Of course I worded it to sound like an egomaniac! Of course I wanted everybody to feel left out! Like I said, this channel was all me. The funny thing is, I never even made the freaking channel! I just made a video about it so people would know! This is honestly out of control. My first instinct is to leave AGUnicorns because everyone else wants to stay but I can't continue to handle this crap. However I'm dying to make some music videos so I guess that's not an option. I also considered taking a break from YouTube until everybody takes a chill pill and realizes that they aren't all entitled to share a channel that they weren't involved in the creation process of, and if they aren't "chosen" to be on it, then they should be entirely offended. I'm REALLY tired of people telling me that I'm certainly not allowed to be friends with any of these girls, some I've known for years, simply because they are defined as "popular". In fact this popularity crap has gone wildly out of control! I can tell that every single person who was "excluded" by the new "clique" of YouTube (Mind you I have many other friends in which I am equally involved it but since all the sharers of AGUnicorns are equally close, we tend to do things together) only wanted to be in it for subscribers and popularity. WHO THE HECK CARES ABOUT POPULARITY? I truly don't and never did. Not once in my career here did I EVER ask or bribe anyone to subscribe me, and guess what, I started from 0 and WORKED my way to the position that everyone else put me in, and I work extremely hard to stay there. Not because I love the feeling of being "famous" but because I want to improve myself and to be kind to everybody. This means 175 messages a week, 2 videos a week and dealing with situations like these. People seem to think that this channel is all for the most popular, and best AGTubers but honestly, I would put many many MANY other girls on that channel before myself, because my videos have a long way to go. Oh wait, I shouldn't have said that, I'm an egomaniac right? Right... Anyways this fun solution has turned to the biggest headache that I've faced since summer 2010 and it's only worsening because no matter who I explain it, I'm saying something wrong and leaving someone out so the videos are gone. The only reason I said nobody else could be on in that video was so that I wouldn't have to answer six billion comments asking because everyone wants to be in with the "popular" girls... -insert eye roll at the word popular here- Not to exclude anyone. It was for us because we made it as a collective. It's funny because I was and have never been, nor am a popular girl at school, and since I'm painfully shy, I never will be. I was actually bullied a few years back and would hide around the school looking for a place to eat so that people wouldn't see me alone. I was excluded from everything, but I put on my big girl panties and made friends because they were kind to me. Popularity gets you no where and I'm not searching for it. Subscribe to me because you like to watch my videos, not for any other reason. Anyways I better get it out there that THIS MESSAGE WAS NOT TO OFFEND ANYONE because everyone seems to be so easily offended lately. It's just my incoherent ranting that made no chronological sense whatsoever. Thank you for getting this far if you did. And by the way, I removed the videos and am hoping to help everyone forget them because I can't flipping stand answering the comments anymore. Which brings me to another point: As much as I DETEST letting haters get off saying random crap on my videos, I'm just not replying to them. Even if they say something completely ludicrous. It's just not worth the time. Instead I'm going to reply to all the kind comments (If that's possible seeing there are so many XD) because those people are worth the time =) Anyway you're also one of those fantastic people for reading this!
-Ali